02019-04-02 | Uncategorized | 6 comments

The reason I started making bread at home was simple: I could not find decent bread where I live. Having grown up surrounded by bakeries, and with fresh rolls and crusty sourdough bread a staple that could be counted on when I came home from school, this was a problem for me. There were so many neighborhood bakeries that my family became very discerning… we would go to this bakery for the freshest little bread rolls, to that one for the best large sourdough loaves, and preferred a third one for sweet items.

A baker told me that it wasn’t possible to make bread in a home oven, because the dough needed steam to develop a soft crumb, and home ovens expel humidity. Professional ovens were designed to contain humidity and have a mechanism to inject steam to create the perfect crumb. For decades I believed this to be true and unhappily made do with the bread I found in local bakeries.

When I had lived without good bread for many years, I suddenly felt that the difference between a house and a home was… bread. The smell of bread was home. I searched the internet looking for a solution to baking bread in a home oven and five years ago I discovered a book by an American baker. The book was called Tartine and it discribed a method of using a Dutch oven to contain the moisture in the dough in order to create a soft crumb. After twenty minutes of baking one removed the top of the Dutch oven and the bread could then develop the dark crust.

According to the book’s instructions I mixed water and flour with my hand and waited patiently for it to attract that mixture of wild yeast and microbes that becomes the sourdough mother, that magical substance that makes the dough rise and which creates the beautiful airholes in the bread. Making bread is alchemy. By taking the most simple ingredients, water, flour and salt, and turning them into bread, one claims membership in humanity, for only humans use fire to create food. Breaking bread is a sign of making peace in many cultures. Sharing bread is a sign of making a stranger feel welcome.

I was lucky and the very first loaves turned out well enough. The house suddenly smelled like a home. Every Sunday morning I made dough and worked it from eight o’clock in the morning until about five in the afternoon, when I turned the oven on to bake. I discovered I loved the pace of making bread, which combines waiting with stretching and folding the dough every half hour. It felt right, this combination of doing and waiting, breathing in and exhaling, like growing plants or creating art… action followed by observation and contemplation.

I decided I had to share my bread and on Sundays I began to make four loaves. On Monday mornings I drove around town and delivered bread to my friends. I have done this for over five years now, having started in the Fall of 2013. Since January of 2014 I have documented the ingredients and measurements of every loaf. Loaves that are mostly white flour, loaves that are mostly whole wheat flour, loaves with lots of semolina, loaves with barley porridge, with brown rice porridge, black rice porridge, loaves with oatmeal, loaves with boiled potato slices, loaves with herbs, loaves with small chunks of cheese…

In time making bread has become part of me, like meditation and playing the guitar before, and today I cannot imagine my life without a weekly bread day, the day that starts with choosing ingredients from the cupboard, mixing them together with water and the leaven that was prepared the previous day. Bread day is punctuated by examining and turning the dough every half hour, and always culminates in turning on the oven and getting ready to bake. And by the end of that day my house always smells like a home.


  1. Banafsheh

    This is such a good read. I was supposed to be at a Fleetwood Mac concert with a friend tonight but one of the band members got sick and they cancelled, now rescheduled. So here I am by myself sitting in a restaurant alone eating bad nachos and dreaming I was one of your friends to get a roll of bread every Sunday. I am liking this platform because now I love reading your blogs. So kewl! Home, house…yes! I get it! I was also raised on fresh bread in Tehran, in Europe but in America that almost ended..I have had some success in the last years , almost daily at this French patisserie 5 minutes away from my house but sadly he closed. Latest discovery is a place in Vermont, truly exquisite! When in Santa Fe, I buy my bread from Chez Mamou… I need tell one if fans about your blog..he is a cool guy ..I follow him on Instagram and he loves your bread… Did I tell you how much I love reading this blog..I do..tata

  2. Doc

    Because of your bread pics, I started on the journey of making my own bread. You gave me some pointers and suggested reading, and I’ve been making my own bread for about four years now, sharing with friends and experimenting with all the grains and oven temps. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing, it’s been a wonderful experience to have. Making bread is as much a part of my routine as my meditation and yoga and music.

  3. ottmar

    Thank you, Doc, I am happy to hear that! Bread, meditation, yoga, and music = the four pillars. :-)

  4. Jared

    I dig this post and loved the photos! It has inspired me to start making bread again. I inherited a 40-plus year old sourdough starter a few years back, but haven’t made bread in a while . . . Indeed, bread making is a powerful, symbolic activity. You can see why references to it are so important in Western spiritual thought–from pagan Mediterranean mystery-cults through to Christianity (which I guess in a way is really just an extension of pagan mystery cults . . .).

  5. Boris

    That would be baking cake in my case. The smell from the kitchen when my Mum made cakes on weekends when I was a child and teenager. Just some word dropping: Tortenboden, Butterkuchen, Streuselkuchen … Recently my wife started to bake with our oldest daughter, Marmorkuchen, Bananenkuchen and stuff. The smell makes home very comfy.

  6. Boris

    I am a completely biased German when it comes to this: There is nothing like the smell of a bakery in the morning. When I went to primary school on the Bavarian countryside I had to pass a bakery every morning and the smell coming from the inside where the baker and his people were making fresh bread, Brezn, Semmeln, etc., is second to none! There was a classmate whose father worked in the bakery and every day he would pass her fresh Semmeln from a window. The bakery still exists, fortunately, and it is one of the things I enjoy the most when I am visiting “home” to go there every morning.


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